If You Only Knew

	  		C 
I've been trying so hard to survive 
          G 
Sometimes I think that I wanna die 
Dm 
I feel so fucking guilty cuz god 
                  F 
I'm so lucky to live my life 

C 
So I keep all the pain to myself 
         G 
Losing faith but nobody can tell 
         Dm 
Mom, I don't want you worried cuz that would just hurt me 
        F 
So I pretend I'm fine 

              C 
If you only knew 
                                    G 
What my mind is telling me I should do 
                                    Dm 
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight 
     F                    G 
I'm too sad to cry it's true 
         C 
If you knew 

                                       G 
All the shit my brain is putting me through 
                                        Dm 
You'd come running over straight to my room here tonight 
      F               G 
I'm sorry but I need you 
              C 
If you only knew 

C 
I wish I was somebody else 
         G 
I'm constantly overwhelmed 
           Dm 
Now I'm falling again getting drunk with some friends 
         F 
It's a silent cry for help 
              Am                  Em 
I wanna get better, want you to know 
              Dm             F 
That I can't do this on my own 

              C 
If you only knew 
                                 G 
What my mind is telling me I should do 
                                      Dm 
That I'm drunk and all alone in  my room here tonight 
     F                    G 
I'm too sad to cry it's true 
              C 
If you only knew 
                                       G 
All the shit my brain is putting me through 
                                        Dm 
You'd come running over straight to my room here tonight 
      F               G 
I'm sorry but I need you 

                      Dm 
Take me out of this hell 
               F 
Oh, somebody help 
                      C 
Take me out of this hell 
                F    G 
Oh, I'm not myself 

C                                                     G 
I wanna tell you what my mind is telling me I should do 
                                     Dm 
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight 
     F                        G 
I'm too sad to cry but I want to 
                  C 
Oh, if you only knew